In the Waiting

My mother would often tell me I put the cart before the horse. She was right. I would think or step too far ahead than where I actually was; in the waiting. The yearning for hopes and desires can be like a desert without rain when deferred days, months, or even years without an answer…

Yes, You May Call Me a Pawn

I pretend that I’m visiting from out of town. I am on vacation for the summer, sitting upon the terra-cotta deck overlooking a large lake full of boats going wherever the wind takes them. Blue sky and linear clouds just beyond my reach, thoughtfully sorted apart and timely covering the sun each time I get…

Raise Me Awake

from where I’ve been sleeping too long. Places my heart has dug deep into soil only to loose ground where roots weren’t connected. Rise in me the confidence to move onward focusing on what’s ahead rather than behind prioritizing what’s right rather than what’s wrong, Elevate You, than anything else.  

Back Into the Wild

Your whisper bends my ear, while my heart grips onto what is not mine. You ask me to let go, but instead I tighten evermore the keepsake in my palm. Again, You whisper. Ashamed of my disobedience, I bow my head, my selfishness aching. Wishing Your voice was just a sound I can ignore, but I…

Airplane Thoughts

Gazing through a frosted window, I see strange lights in the distance, another unknown town passes by as I wrestle miles above the earth, gawking into the dark sky. My music changes tenderness to hardness. My heart and head are having an argument, and this temple can’t mediate as it should. It’s right there, right…

Searching for Contentment – Part 2

December 31, 2:40pm, 21 degrees, but feels like 7, I’m sitting outside in a wooden adirondack chair. No, I haven’t lost my mind, I’m actually out here for a breath of fresh air. After hiking the woods for a little bit and taking photos of trees, I decide to sit and watch the clouds change…

Emotional Health and the Need to Surrender

I listened to a sermon this morning that focused on emotional health and was blown away by the realization of how much baggage I allow myself to carry from my past. As the pastor spoke of his own testimony and examples, I mentally dug into my past and realized the underlining of why I do…

Ugh. Job Seeking.

I seriously thought it would be easy to find a job after I was laid off late August of this year. I mean I job seek for others and there are plenty of open positions. Why couldn’t I find a position for me too? Well, for starters it would be helpful if I knew what…