Losing You

Walking away is the best I can do as you cry yourself to sleep at 4:42pm. For all you know it’s morning, as you have the last few months at this time. You are confused, but you don’t know why, you are incorrigible, nothing will help the situation, thus is the reason I must step…

M O M

She graces the room with wisdom and smiles. Like a hero emerging from the fire, she confidently secures and saves you from trouble with gentleness, correction, and love. She is strong, a survivor of her time, a rock in yours. She is beloved in so many ways you’ve lost count. She is more than words…

You Died on a Wednesday

As I sit here enthralled by pastels slowly moving into gold, orange, and red hues, I am mesmerized by the light and the way it dances on the water, while a deeper blue grows richer as the last light of day falls beyond the horizon. The pain has not hit me; broken down callused walls…

Bells

dangle from the hem jingle, jangle jingle, jangle through clouds of dust and rose gardens jingle, jangle jingle, jangle nearer I can hear her coming closing the gap between jingle, jangle jingle, jangle little toes appear in my view she bends for a moment the light catching her curly auburn hair a blaze as she…

For You, I Will

For you I will: eat one bite even if I don’t like it go to the seashore and share its beauty drop everything to be by your side talk even when I’m too tired to stay awake sit in the winter wind, wishing I was lukewarm rather than freezing For you I will, turn my…

After Twilight at Mary Lake

Midnight finds me easy, just after twilight dropped its light. Armed with a headlamp, I trudge through darkness in flip-flops and warmth on a path bedded down by others before me. Two dogs float ahead, their collars aglow, painting an eerie scene at our feet. We stop for a moment to marvel at the Milky…

Alarm Clock Voices

“Right over the mountain, right over the mound,” my youngest niece singing, breaking through my silent prayer and I can’t help but to smile. I am inundated with many of these moments in the early mornings as my nieces and nephew prepare for school. Their rituals carrying through the morning until the bus arrives at…

I’m Here for You

By the look on your face, you are surprised by my presence. “What are you doing here?” is all that could escape from your lips. I wrap my arms around you, my heart missing what we have. After a long hug and a few sobbing tears, you had me bustling around behind you wherever you…

Letting go from 3,000 miles

Visiting you I see how the dementia feeds off of your brain daily, as though you are its meal. When you come back to me in unannounced moments, your eyes clear themselves from the muck and the most beautiful light blue pierces me. Your body has withered and its function is slowing, too fast for…

Devotional Ponderings: Love One Another

Curled up on the couch with a cup of tea in hand, I ponder this morning’s devotional. Love one another. “By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:35 I’m in search of my college volleyball team, some I find and others remain a mystery. I…